Yeah, I hate feeling like I keep my boyfriend from his friends.
Maybe it was just bad timing tonight. Or maybe I shouldn’t have kept him here & encouraged him to go help his friends in need. FML ://
I ain’t trying to start nothing tonight cause it ended on a pretty great note. Yuuuuupp. Buuuutt. I just gotta put this out there. -____-
As I mentioned in my previous post… My boyfriend came over tonight, mmhmm… &He said something about how he has to get up early tomorrow morning so he can go with his mom to take one of his dogs to the vet. I understood it & didn’t wanna keep him here all night so I was like ok, 11 isn’t too late, I’ll send ya home no later than that.
So why is it that he just texted me saying that he just got gas & is gonna go see his two girly friends & THEN head home? Uhm, your ‘legitimate’ excuse for heading home no later than 11 was because you had to get up early in the morning. SO WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE GOING SOMEWHERE ELSE BESIDES HOME TO YOUR BED? When you could have stayed here but because I’m a great girlfriend & didn’t wanna keep you late, I sent you HOME kinda earlier than I WANTED to see you go?
I don’t wanna fight w/ him… again… about something this stupid. I just needed to get it out of my system. I don’t wanna seem like a crazy ass fucking girlfriend. But, I’m a GIRL. Things bother me when they shouldn’t. I don’t care that he’s going to hang out with them. That’s not it. It’s just if he’s gonna say that he needs to head home & shouldn’t be out late then he shouldn’t leave my house to see other people when he is supposed to go home cause he needs to get up early tomorrow morning -_____- Whatever, it’s gonna be his loss of sleep, not mine! :D
Mmk, end rant (: Night.
Well today was aighttt. Woke up & went through a bunch of stuff separating things from trash, keep & garage sale. My sister hasn’t cleaned the bathroom yet so I haven’t put all of my bathroom junk in the proper place… the bathroom lol. It’s still in my bag, bleh. Hopefully the bathroom will be done manana.
After I was finished with all of that, I attempted to shave my dog. She didn’t wanna have it so she ran away & hid in her hiding spot -___- Oh well. I’ll tie her up sometime this week & get it done. It’s just so damn hot outside, ugh.
After that fun time, I went with Mom & Lyla to go to places to run errands & whatnot. We got back & had dinner & watched a movie.
The way I ended my day was arguing with my boyfriend over something silly af. We got over it & spent sometime swimming(: Goooodd timeee.
Now, I’m on here watching Youtube videos since I haven’t seen my favorite Youtube stars in… I don’t even know how long! :D
I moved back into my parents’ house. It’s boring here. No one to hang out w/ except for my sister. She’s cool and all but it just isn’t the same as playing video games w/ my boyfriend or watching movies all night. But, I think the time apart will be ood. It’ll give us a chance to miss each other.
Tomorrow is a big day for me. I plan on waking up in the morning and taking EVERYTHING that I wanna trash or sell in the garage sale OUT OF THIS ROOM. I don’t want anything in here that shouldn’t have to be. I’m tired of the clutter.
And then I’m going to go out back and shave my dog. It’s waaay toooo hot out for her to not be shaven. She’s gonna look gooooood when I’m through w/ her lol.
Everything after that will just be things that I see that need to be done. Prolly sweep the backyard and clean the tables out there. Maybe even vacuum all the upstairs.
I’m planning on walking my dog closer to when the sun goes down, too. Fun fun.
Well, it’s time for bed. Night!(:
Packing tomorrow and moving back home. Ahhh. My dad agreed to let me stay there as long as I keep up with the house chores and get a job. I’m satisfied. I can do this. (:
I thought I was gonna move back home but I was wrong. My dad doesn’t want me to come back home unless I have a job. Wtf? -___-
Moving out of John’s place sometime this week. I need to be out of here by Saturday. Not my choice. His parents want me out.
I’m thinking it’s because I don’t have a job…yet. His parents said things are getting too stressful here. I think they’re just tired of me. But idek. I just know I gotta get out of here.
I REALLY don’t want to. But, I have no choice. I think Ima move back to my parent’s house. Ugggghhhhh.
I’m not worried about me and John. I think we’ll stay together. Will it be easy? Absolutely not. We can work through it, though. For sure.
Ima miss seeing him all the time. But, maybe the time away will be good for us. It’ll give us time to focus on ourselves, do our own thing, get our lives seperate from each other on the right track before finally getting our own place. I’ll save money, whether I’m getting paid to babysit or working or whatever, I will save.
I’m tired of John stressing about how he can’t do things to support us. I don’t want him to support the both of us. I want us both to work and have us bring in two incomes, not just one. I’ve lived in a household for too long to know the struggles of one person working and paying all the bills.
I Love John very much and I’m going to do my part.
So, it has been quite a few days since I have posted anything. Let’s talk a little bit.
It has been pretty hectic in this life. I still don’t have a job so that alone is causing stress and tension in the house. It seems like John and I fight too much about stupid shit. I mean, it ain’t too serious. But, I want the arguing to quit. I’m feeling…not so good. Stressed and maybe a little frustrated.
I’m def hanging in there, though. I’m just hoping that things get better. I’m still trying my best to get a job. That’s pretty much all I can do at this point.
It sucks that the parentals took away the laptop but looky! I have a phone that has internet on it xD woot. I guess keeping up w/ my websites won’t be too hard to do now(: Except for Youtube because my iPod Nano w/ the vid cam on it broke :/ But good news is… I won’t be MIA like I had originally thought. :D
The reason why they took the laptop away is simple… I need to get a job. The internet was apparently keeping me away from getting one. But! I am going to going to try my hardest to get that vet clinic job my older sister is trying to help me get. Once I get that, I will get a new iPod Nana(: Or something else to record shit on so I can add more vids onto my youtube.
I will blog as much as I can to keep everyone updated on my life. Cause ya know, my life is sooo entertaining lol.
Also, I will try to go live on Justin.tv sometime soon on mobile. I will keep you all updated(:
Danasaur out, rawrr
